Wednesday, March 22, 2006

time

moonlight
moonlight,
originally uploaded by Mishaone.
Spurred on by huma's [see sidebar] post about a really good book, I went out and splurged on a stack of brand new books. I spent a good part of my paycheck on it and I don't regret it one bit, which just goes to show you that nothing, absolutely nothing, can replace that pleasant passage of time where you get so wrapped up on a book that you lose all sense of time and don't even care.

I'm at odds with myself these days. My birthday is fast approaching and while I look forward to a day other people must give me attention or feel bad about it like any self-respecting attention-hound, I'm also disturbed by the prospect of upheaval, of change. The closer we get to the big day is one less day I have of this comfortable cocoon my life has become. When I leave my house, I am in complete control because I have my money, I know where my ATM is, I know what stops to make and how quickly to do it. I even know the quickest routes now, as opposed to my earlier blunderings where I would end up somewhere I have never even heard of when trying to cleverly take a shortcut to the university. When I walk in, I see a sea of faces, most of whom I know. I wave, they wave, we all wave. Then we walk on. Tomorrow, if one of us should have died, we would be guilt free since we waved at each other. For a brief second, I flickered in your mind and vice versa, and we both were present. After that, I know where my classes are, I know how to get what I want out of who I want without going through the hassles of the inexperienced newbies. This ease of living, this warm and fuzzy and familiar world is what I don't want to lose.

And yes, to round off with the usual, I got a new cell phone... again. A friend remarked on how often I change cell phones, how intensely I crave each new gadget that I have my heart set on and six months later, it's something new. I do always maintain that if you don't love your gadgets, don't buy one. If you can't spare the time to examine your choice and finally settle on the one that makes you itch to buy it and test the outer limits of its workings, you should just get a simple, non-complicated machine and live a life that's just that little bit more ordinary. Oh, and my new cell phone is a Samsung SGH-X700, and a cute little bugger it is too. For those interested, reviews possibly later on when I have used it for a bit.

Misha at Wednesday, March 22, 2006

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