Tuesday, July 13, 2004

of fake laughter and honest lies

Lately my own sarcastic laughs sound hollow and devoid of mirth of any kind. I am conversing with people I do not find funny, and do not really give a shit about.

friend says:
salay nai wapas hee nahi ki
me says:
haha

Can you feel it too, the cardboard-ness of these sounds that I have begun generate? They have no taste and no feeling and no purpose really, except to alleviate the fear of being alone. If they stop, the people will stop making hollow sounds right back at me and the silence is not what I think I can take right now. Sure, we all have times when we choose the silence but right now, it's more than I can stand.

Misha at Tuesday, July 13, 2004

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